The Novel

The novel is haunting me, tempting me to cross over to the darkside, I know it's what the readers want, but I can't.
Damn my morals, damn them to hell.
No one understands, how can they, I've cut myself off from the world. In doing so I may have sacrificed my sanity, maybe that's why the book is going so well. If sanity returns will my writting suffer?