So much to say

Requires too much effort

Why

I haven't said much these past few months. I didn't say anything because I didn't want to be pityed, but the reason for it was I was in a very depressed mode, nothing would go right and it was hard to clear those thoughts from my head.

Last night was the first night all year that I truely smiled, finally something good in a hateful world, something to lift my spirits.... I hope the feeling lasts.

So lost right now, lost for so long, hidden well but still there.