The Tomb

Here I sit in agony, a fool of my own creation
I've left myself unguarded and open to total damnation
Better it would have been if none had ever known my kiss
Better to not have gone, I'd not know what I miss
Here I stare at different stars, under a different sky
Dreams are fading into misery as they slowly die
My heart is heavy, my soul is lost, as I fear tomorrows break
Knowing that I could not, but how tempting my life it is to take
That which I once dreamed, is now fearfully all too real
I want to run from it in terror, to flee and not to feel
I know that I will crush him, but if I stay he will kill me
What horrors I've yet to face in order to be free
I know he loves me, and perhaps no other will
But all I have is pity for him, his kisses leave me ill
I'm dying inside, I can feel it, why can't he see I'm falling appart
Tying to hold on to sanity, a fool with an ice cold heart
I ponder life for others, had I never had been concieved
I wonder would they have been happier, perchance even relieved
His touch cuts me his words bring me to tears
As he hurts me in his grip, how can he be ignorant of my fears
I wonder will he kill himself if I walk away
I know it's not good to ponder, but this thought finds me every day
I'm scared of life, I'm scared of death, I'm scared of what I am
Afraid to face another day, I just don't know if I can
This tomb holds me now, I can no longer rome
Lost and alone in a dark abyss I once refered to as home